Praise You In This Storm

I find the best way to cope with everyday life is to worship. It is what I was made to do, even though God blessed me with me this terrible voice (I think He thinks it is funny).

So anyway, I am at "the Park" getting slammed by the gayest checks imaginable. I mean I was getting omelets, "American Burgers" and t-bones all at once, it was relentless. Starting to get frustrated I start to sing "Praise You In This Storm" by Casting Crowns.

As we started to slow down I started to think about the storms in my life and how they affected me. The first one to come to my mind was, of course, my Mother dying.

I know the reason why my Mother died was so I could find Jesus. In my desperation to find stability in life I found my rock to base my life in Jesus. Although, that day at "the Park" I found out how far I have came.

The day my Mother died, I cannot explain to you my pain. Mind you I was 14 and I truly believed she was not going to die but she did. My world crashed that day, I did not think I was going to make it. Everyday, for a good four years was a struggle.

As I thought about her death I realized that it had been six years earlier that month. I had completely forgot about her on the day that she had died and that killed me. It still kills me, I do not know who I have become. How could I forget about her, especially on that day?

That is where I am today but...

I'll praise You in this storm
And i will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm